Friday, December 24, 2010
haha its been a longgggg time! 1 whole year actually haha damn this 2010 is almost over. well i guess no one comes to this blog anymore (: poor thing.
well then, lets see.. this years been kinda fun and lots of ups and downs. and i find myself asking questions again and again and again. why did this happened, that, and why i'm feeling like this, and many more.. haha
in the end, all i can say is. its better to depend on yourself than others. hey i'm not against depending on others but because ultimately you have to look back to yourself for support. not everyone is always there for you. sounds pretty much like i'm a loner hahaha
seems like i have lots of regrets in this life, i don't know when it will end. well it has to end. i need to get my life movinggggg! damn biggest regret of 2010 was my officership ended like.. pretty fast. well too bad for myself SUCK IT UP YO haha still looking back.. i'm quite disappointed with myself.
oh wells. take away the positive and keep it with you for the rest of your life. what i have learnt i will carry along with me forever. hopefully hahaha what i didn't get to learn.. hopefully i will find out what i have missed. regrets keep me going because they tell me that i can't stop trying, can't give up. not now.. not ever. because if i do, nothing will ever be done. and i don't wanna live that way. (:
kpop ftw musickeepsmealive.
dancing is something new
training is never ending
THE HARDEST PART IS TO GET STARTED, ONCE YOU START YOU DON'T STOP
LETS GOOOOOO!
damn i miss those times we never had.
all messed up;
12:13 AM
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
heyhey~ just 3 more days and JC life ends. that's damn fastttt and 'A' levels is like in 29 days or something.. damn. well i guess its time to say goodbye to people from t13. haha
i somehow feel less attached to cj than i was to sji. was it because too little time was spent here? too much has happened? i don't really know..
all i know is.. well nothing. feels like i wasted the 2 years. i realise i swear alot in cj, something that has never happened before. maybe cause its easier to put on a strong front than let them see the weak side.
and yet the last 2 weeks of school has been almost hell for me.. not just school life but my family also. so much for a family holiday. the idea which crumbled in 2days. things that you still have not understand, things that i try to explain to you, things that you choose not to listen. and then everything falls apart. i can't hold the family alone. i'm not enough. and i realise something. i'm always the first to object and reject any plan, be it school stuff or family. and in the end i'm the one to try pull everything back. why is it me? i'm damn tired of it. but everytime.. i can't seem to let it go that way.
rml. well i guess it wouldn't make a difference. its just 2 more days. i guess i'll leave it as that? so close yet so far. even if more time was given i'll prob never reach. you're just in a different place from me.
goodbye.
all messed up;
8:21 PM
Saturday, September 5, 2009
well although i said i wasnt gonna blog anymore but yeah here goes (:
but i really want to say. wait for me. i'll catch up to all of you guys again. after A levels. at least its a promise to myself =)
damn but i think my birthday this year is quite disappointing for too much reasons but still im grateful. =D
i'll take the burden upon my shoulders now and face what i should have a long time ago. Stand on your own two feets and its time to take off.
all messed up;
2:05 AM
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
what are we here for?
why am i here?
i cant find what im looking for. maybe cause i dont know what im looking for. gloomy shits, what's wrong with me -.-
Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
When you fall everyone stands
Another day and you've had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your
Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold
Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
Move along
So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold
Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
When everything is wrong we move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
When everything is wrong, we move along
Along, along, along
When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
[x3]
(Move along)
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
Right back what is wrong
We move along
i can't believe after so long of searching i still can't find this thing called motivation. zZz
all messed up;
11:35 PM
Friday, June 19, 2009
hm i just finished Code Geass S1 &S2 in like 3days?
one of the best animes that i've watched definately. nice ending.
Zero Requiem
all messed up;
8:08 PM
Friday, June 12, 2009
constant reminder of what happened,
its like i cant escape it.
why?
guess i should concentrate on studies first.. but then again.. where's the study mood.
all messed up;
10:24 PM
Friday, May 29, 2009
okay i was supposed to be asleep by now. but then cause tmr's hockey is cancelled. so i dont care alr. and just like that. my plans for tmr is screweddddddd. i dunno what to do.
and i just ended from a almost 3 hours of CS with adam and linh. although i was talking to my cousin who came over for like almost 1hour. lol still alot though.
talked about my studies and stuff. quite alot to think about again.
rawr. i wanna go drink.
i wanna go play.
i wanna have fun.
who to drink with. who to play with. who to have fun with.
Something's missing from my life.
all messed up;
11:58 PM
