my jigsaw puzzle life.

Friday, November 30, 2007

wah head pain sia.... play too much maple le... lol i sort of gave up on that DK too far away and i dun like the 4th job so i went back to my dit now lv62 haha but i think really play too much le... everytime 3 or 4am sleep siao sia... and tmr not going badminton at cck... zZz stupid heng khit book 1 hr at 8am to 9am siao sia.. lucky ivan told me... if not i go there sure kill someone sia waste my time..

well glad we sorted that out -.- oh wells.. so troublesome...

aaahhhhhhhhhhhh nxt monday go viceroy's house stay till wed!! thurs morn go play bball with zb and rachael but i haven told zb that she's going o.o then friday nothing... k quite busy liao and my money running out!! ><

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2:53 AM

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

hmm i was playing maple and talking with joel about the past yr... and i realised that i really miss the times we spent in art so much... joel was right.. now got no ivan to stun at, no yew tong to laugh at, to richard to be disgusted with, no kenneth to joke around and he added, no me to gay with -.- lol i can actually remember almost everything we do in the art room, the staying back, the rushing of work, the paintings that all happened this yr

i suppose it just suddenly hit me real hard that im leaving sji and my teachers and friends... for the past few weeks i've been going out with my classmates so its like we are still together but in the end we will all be going separate ways... and now i know that it is really hard to find friends, true friends those who probably will always be by your side but you never know. i suppose this is how it really is, just you and your friends pulling each other along the way...

and now my mum is asking me to go in brunei, like.. the 3 of us, my sis my mum and i, to go in together... she's saying it as a break, but its really to get me to see my dad's business.. if you are asking what it is, its basically selling some spare parts stuff and i have like little interest in it... but what can i say if my parents want me to go and learn some stuff?

i think i made a really big mistake this yr was that i trusted or believed too much in a person.. i really don't know what to say.. You told me to tell you my problems, probably the first to tell me that, but yet in the end both of us messed up.. i tot u could probably understand me, like the first person to do so, but i guess you are just like everyone else is? right now joyce isn't talking to me at all, cuz she's afraid she might give me the wrong idea that she's giving me a chance and that's just crap totally.. so what if i liked her, so what if i thought mayb i had a chance? and even when i told her that i accepted it but we are still friends and yet u ignore me like this? im quite lost at what to do... ignoring me like this isn't something a friend would do... but forget it, its you who are unable to accept it not me and i don't care anymore

for those who are reading this dun say i emo k... its just like this.. oh well im going back to mapling =)

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2:08 AM

Sunday, November 25, 2007

omg i feel like killing ronney... idiot... my legs... chiong so much for what sia... i think i tmr die liao la... leg sure cramp..

cycling twice in a week is not very fun.. lol no lah actually it is cuz i haven gotten to cycle for like 2yrs le? lol geez im bored now and a little hungry..

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12:24 AM

Thursday, November 22, 2007

lols i've been doing nothing all day but eat, sleep, play maple dota, cycle, watch movies, swimming and all the crap hahahahaha not even working liao... haiz long story dun wan type out also.. well i must say sorry to yew tong lah at first all say wan paint then in the end see the wall scared le... and that.. that... stupid fked up guy... gives me the creeps lah.. mayb i'll say what happened on that day some other time lol

i wan a dragon knight in maple... but if i wan to get it by this holi means i have to stay at home practically everyday... so no life sia, so just decided to play and see how far i go lol

when i was going back today from east coast cycling... i thought about some stuff and i decided that i would keep choosing a path until i am at the right one lol then i contradicted myself cuz i thought... how the hell am i supposed to know if its right.. but i decided not to think so much hahahaha

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3:16 AM

Sunday, November 18, 2007

simplicity... too bad the world isn't that way ronney... if the world was that simple you wouldn't be feeling the way you are now(or were)
then again its not that complex... i suppose it depends on the people around you or the surrounding.. sometimes a simple action and yet you look too much into it then it becomes something else? and yet sometimes things are so obvious but you don't see them..
all i have to say now is, i totally do not feel more relaxed than i was before Os although i get to play and go out but the things just stay in your head

the worst problem i cant get over is probably "why am i doing this?"

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1:45 AM

Saturday, November 17, 2007

crap im beginning to hate the PAE exercise... and my mum doesn't want me to go to CJ and yet ziyang and sameer probably going there and with 9 minus 2 cca points i can't go to NJC or Hwa Chong(like duh, 3points to go there wtf man) so its like no art in JC for me cuz i dun wan to go Nanyang either, then... sameer say mayb he will go ACJC after first month in CJ that's so crapped up cuz what if i choose to go there then well done no one's there -.-

then again CJ got nothing nice... and i'm thinking mayb go MJC but my mum say she'd rather i go AJC if i were to choose MJC so how? here cannot there cannot, 7 points can't go VJC either(if onli i had higher chinese but i dropped in sec 2 fk!!)

and i was thinking exams were hard, choosing is harder ._."

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3:16 AM

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

lol i totally agree with zy lah... its so darn boring lah other than facing the comp there's practically nothing to do sia... staying at sameer's house is like onli 1 day out of the whole holiday? and im having a hard time getting all the 203 students... its like no one replied me except for kenneth? -.-"

i wonder what everyone else is doing now... dun tell me sleeping...

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1:06 AM

Saturday, November 10, 2007

wah piang today spend so much... zzz $30+ sia T.T oh well nvm it was worth it hahaha sakae sushi was dam nice~ but too bad i cant eat much sushi get full very fast lol ><

hmm after that go watch The Game Plan. nice show, has dam funny parts but ending quite predictable leh.. nvm nvm i enjoyed it hahaha then yvan nose bleed again and its like for the same reason as when we watched Balls Of Fury hahahaha got back at like 9.30pm

woots play dota with my cousin hahaha but tio trash like siao i think was like 3 games of 2vs3AI+ insane and all 3 times lose hahahaha too noob liao ><

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12:00 AM

Friday, November 9, 2007

ok the night din end well... stupid.... wth did i do wrong to deserve this? it wasnt even my fault and there u are rubbing it in lah not like as if i din thought of all those that u said.. fk lah... i probably just wanted someone to listen to me not to tell me my mistakes when i already know them... i cant blame u either since u are trying to help me but... where the hell is that person whom i need.. i guess that person doesnt exist...
walking the path which i told myself to avoid.. how nice... fk...

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12:27 AM

Thursday, November 8, 2007

wah today is SO BORING hahahaha

ziyang asked if want to go out at 2+ cuz he also buay ta han liao haha but too bad terry went malaysia, ronney go grandma house, zhihao cant go out and i dunno about the rest le... so we ended up looking for free online games to play lols decided to play Wolfteam, something like CS but i dun think is free for all kills then need to capture bases and all... we played 1v1 so lame lah... run round and round and round then pang pang pang i die he die also both headshot at same time -.- but i think will be more fun if more ppl are playing then can camp at bases hahahaha

before zy ask me go out i was playing wc3 with vice, went to finish off the game we saved last time lolss but so lame lah AI rexed us 2 lanes so we defend like siao then like losing le cuz the push all the way to the throne(that tree thingy) but we won instead... guess why... cuz the 3rd lane that the AI nvr push the creeps pushed in by themselves and went to their base de frozen throne... SO LAME we din even enter their base... then we played a new TD also but i keep dying hahaha ><

Ok Class 203 gathering at jonas's house!! but still long lah 3rd week of December AND he wants the whole class there if possible, i think like some christmas party ba lolss anyway for those who are reading this and was from 203 kindly pass the message around to the rest and i'll start gathering the names of those who want to go soon :) i hope everyone can go

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8:42 PM

lols i went to the airport leh... send my dad off lols nxt time i see him will be nxt yr sia.. then in the end i din go sameer's house lol too tired.. then tmr cannot go also... crap..
aiya aiya zhihao's sha qi too qiang le!! hahahaha i wun say anything lah dun worry :)
Os left two stupid mcq science paper... but im playing like siao le hahahahaha but then again getting abit sian of audition... everyday like got ppl break up and all the crap like wtf? then dunno who like who dunno what crap -.- wish cabalSEA was out le... then got nicer game to play...
aiya holiday come need to make so much decisions again.. argh... sux..

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12:10 AM

Tuesday, November 6, 2007

LOL hmm theres a new LCD in the house~ but sads my dad going back tmr and yet i cant go airport cuz of stupid geog paper 1...
i left geog paper 1 and 2 science mcq!!! but nxt monday finish....... zZz......... then viceroy finish le then someone else finish tmr... then got ppl got 1 WEEK TO STUDY SCIENCE AND YET STUDYING NOW pro sia... stupid idiot...
then got someone sms explode again cannot sms me leh.. )): oh wells too bad for me then lol i think she still studying...
ziyang offline... i think sleep le... zhihao probably sleep le also leh hahaha ((: zh u jia liat le lah u... hahahaha ok i shall not say much later i die lolsss
wah piang sian diao nothing to do now....... sian sian sian sian sian lols i shall go... dunno do what... hahahaha

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10:54 PM

Monday, November 5, 2007

hahahaha everyone say my blog emo... -.- k lah all the post last time is emo de right but i had to say mah if not very difficult to breathe leh will die one lor haha

ok not bad i just found out my dad thinks way ahead of me... like really way ahead and im not going to worry about my family so much liaox.. (more like i dun wish i have to ever again hahahaha)

anyway.. now that so many ppl seeing ah i dun wan say much le hahahahah ((:

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12:21 PM

Saturday, November 3, 2007

end of the year

Ok lets see what has been happening the whole year…
Hmm friends that I found closer to me would be ziyang, sameer, ivan, yew tong, zhihao, joel, joey, boyang, terry, yvan, ronney, lu zhi, matthew, george, all the art students, 422 and 203.

Well I must say I did not regret joining art at all though there were times I wanted to give up but heng ahh hahaha got frens like joel, ivan and yew tong in art. Must say a big thank you to them. Joel I’ll never forget the times when we made the claywork haha (dun get wrong ideas idiot hahaha). Ivan and yew tong ah… close frens since lower sec I wun forget u too hahaha well the times we had at kfc I wun forget.. definitely! ( cheese is made of butter!! Hahaha yea right lolsss) tan yew tong u owe me a trip to ur house lah idiot….

Hmm my classmates ahh… haha boyang, ziyang and Donovan I wun forget the Beijing group Bravo! Cuz we trashed Alpha hahaha no hard feelings but I dun like some members there not Isaac lah is someone else u know…( im sure u know hahaha) hmm SAMEER hahahaha! Well thx for this whole year teaching me English, well abit, and chem lols! Well u definitely made the class more cheerful =D zhihao maths rep! haha always got me help that’s why not so tough right hahahaha well you seem a little stressed up competing with ur bro but all the best! Dun lose! Hahahaa later ur bro wack me sia lols hmm ronney u owe me one for the SHE tickets!!! Hahahaha well glad u enjoyed the show anyway lol hmm terry haha ur house is dam nice!! Lol I hope grad night would be fun though have to go back to school the nxt day like wtf… matthew ah blur boy better open ur eyes big big hor nxt yr… take care of yourself.. eh lu zhi ah.. I not sure if I will go back to wushu sia I somehow wan and dun wan zzzz wushu was the main thing I always talked to u about haha well the singing of Chinese songs during Chinese lessons with ziyang was dam funny lah hahaha YVAN I wan go ur house!!!! Hahahaha

Hmm ok lah to all the 422 all the best nxt yr! must meet up ok… dun piang seh everyone sia that’s so idiotic

Ok art… hahaha spend half or more of our time in sji in the ART ROOM u are so dam right lah Richard haha dunno how many hours sia… but I hope everyone got A1 dun break our teachers hearts lols this yr’s batch of art studies rocks! I have to say that lah hahaha everyone is so close to each other its like another class of our own sia.. hmm Kenneth, joseph, richard, ivan, yew tong, joel, Isaac, zhen he, ernest, jared, sean, myself… did I miss out anyone? Lol must rmb each other hor… dun dao if meet on streets ah.. I wack u sia.. lols jkjk its been really stressful this year… so tough but its over! And done with lol all the paper2s done nicely :) and to my art teachers thank you!

Hmm 3 long lost friends… I shall not name hahahaha but I think a few ppl know right… C,J(that’s the jc I going nxt yr so suay right hahahaha… ok not funny… lols) and well one more I din mention much but is Keming lol so long nvr talk to u all sia… 4 years leh siao sia.. but I must say it was a good choice of me finding my contacts book…. Lol aiya aiya sian diao~~ this is so stupid but… wth man I dunno how to say….. lol sometimes I feel like giving up dunno why I am even doing it for… but yet I cant stop? zZz and cuz of Os so long nvr chat with someone… idiot mugger… then meet up with someone also not say went very well(although it was nice to see u again)but mayb too sudden ba… sorry about it… you know.. when sometimes u stop replying my smses I dunno whats going on in ur mind.. half heartedly I want to know but then again im rushing it zzz how did I ended up like this.. ke ming after Os we go out k? mayb play badminton or dota lolss see how
I must say its dam shuang to pour ur sorrows into someone else lol cuz you’ll just feel dam relaxed after that but its not good for the other person anyway hahaha… living without a person to guide u sux.. but there are people who has done it and found their way through.. I shall learn and move on.. honesty seems to be still better than lying and living with the guilt(thx zy) although how much I disliked it when i found out it would change the grade of my geog but it came back lol.. the lonely times im going to spent by myself nxt yr I better get something to do before I destroy myself… ><

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1:36 AM