Wednesday, November 28, 2007
hmm i was playing maple and talking with joel about the past yr... and i realised that i really miss the times we spent in art so much... joel was right.. now got no ivan to stun at, no yew tong to laugh at, to richard to be disgusted with, no kenneth to joke around and he added, no me to gay with -.- lol i can actually remember almost everything we do in the art room, the staying back, the rushing of work, the paintings that all happened this yr
i suppose it just suddenly hit me real hard that im leaving sji and my teachers and friends... for the past few weeks i've been going out with my classmates so its like we are still together but in the end we will all be going separate ways... and now i know that it is really hard to find friends, true friends those who probably will always be by your side but you never know. i suppose this is how it really is, just you and your friends pulling each other along the way...
and now my mum is asking me to go in brunei, like.. the 3 of us, my sis my mum and i, to go in together... she's saying it as a break, but its really to get me to see my dad's business.. if you are asking what it is, its basically selling some spare parts stuff and i have like little interest in it... but what can i say if my parents want me to go and learn some stuff?
i think i made a really big mistake this yr was that i trusted or believed too much in a person.. i really don't know what to say.. You told me to tell you my problems, probably the first to tell me that, but yet in the end both of us messed up.. i tot u could probably understand me, like the first person to do so, but i guess you are just like everyone else is? right now joyce isn't talking to me at all, cuz she's afraid she might give me the wrong idea that she's giving me a chance and that's just crap totally.. so what if i liked her, so what if i thought mayb i had a chance? and even when i told her that i accepted it but we are still friends and yet u ignore me like this? im quite lost at what to do... ignoring me like this isn't something a friend would do... but forget it, its you who are unable to accept it not me and i don't care anymore
for those who are reading this dun say i emo k... its just like this.. oh well im going back to mapling =)
all messed up;
2:08 AM
