my jigsaw puzzle life.

Sunday, December 30, 2007

aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh what a longgg day and super tiring hahahaha woke up at 7.45am ... oversleep... lols nvm went to bathe and wait for everyone to get ready. my mum was charging her phone then i also charge mine but then.... my sis switched it off like 5mins after i was charging then my battery like... 70% -.-

then... my cousin(same age as my sis de) came over to follow us to east coast park, cause all dunno how to go then follow me... but they walk to fking slow i swear, i take one step they take 2 steps to catch up. So took 966 then 13 and got to east coast park around 9.45am and... no one else was there yet. vice and vick had golf then the rest all lagging dunno do what. so we started first and it was like some escort mission cuz my mum cycles slow. Went to the jetty there then rest and went back to the macs there again cuz more ppl came le around 10.30am going back that time my mum fell down. why? cuz so many ppl and the fking cyclist went so close to my mum and after my mum fell he just continue cycling and shook his head wtf man knn bastard i hope his mum falls down and breaks her hand or something. such an inconsiderate bastard. Oh wait why am i cursing his mum, should be he fall down and break his legs then dun need cycle for months bloody bastard. well lucky it wasn't a bad fall, no bleeding.

then my mum went with my aunt and i went off with vice.
D: so where u wan to go?
V: anywhere lor
D: go changi there ah?
V: dam far leh... anything lah
D: aiya can de lah
V: k lor
D: k lets go

and after half an hour....

D: wah knn 7.9km more
V: aiya go lah go lah
D: k lor

the 7km was a TOTAL STRAIGHT path all the way down... and we were not the only crazy ppl going from east coast to changi beach lol after that 7.9km i was getting hungry so had to look for food... but it was like another 3km till there was food and it was like... 12.40pm super hungry... but vice couldn't eat cause he had stomach indigestion so he only had drinks then 1.20pm time to get back to east coast park and it was like another 10+km lol

almost died going back and i was getting so bored i started saying random stuff and vice was like almost dead and not talking. i think was his stomach not feeling well

oya and i forgot to say i saw the areoplanes took off and land. lol k might sound like nothing but it was dam nice. i got a video of the plane flying over but cant play on comp =(

when we got back it was like.... 2.45pm haha totally drained ahhh lie down on the mat and i nearly fell asleep hahaha just laze around till 3+ going to 4pm then went to vice's house, bathe and on the air con woots dam shiok haha then went to eat dinner at 5+pm cause got hungry again haha

i saw another cousin kai xiang
kx: hey man i'm in the army now...
D: haha i know, why black specs?
kx: its standard man
D: hahaha

he sound so sad about it lor but i think he left one more year in army only. then nxt yr is vice then nxt nxt yr is me walao sian

oh and i saw my maths tutor cousin first thing he said was "wah hair so long ah" hahaha but tmr going to cut away le =(

then... me and vice went to lie on the bed and vick and his gf were on the other bed and she fell asleep. we could hear her snoring away even though she cover herself with the blanket hahahaha then me and vice nearly fell asleep when.... vick opened the door and the noise from outside filled the room

Vice and me: eh why u open the door... falling asleep le leh
Vick: wake up already lah, need to wake up
Vice: huh, today also no one's birthday....
Des: ya lor...

then vick closed the door and we went back to sleep hahahahaha if you are wondering why we said no one's bd, cuz everytime need call us out cut cake. lol

then i sleep till 8+pm but vice got up to watch one piece. i was called awake cuz need go back home le hahaha

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9:22 PM

Saturday, December 29, 2007

wooots~ i found auditions songs!! love those songs sia... i used to play audi just for those songs, then stupid audi didn't buy the songs and ended up with copyright probs -.- but nvm i got those that i like now! =DD

sending random songs to caroline now, nothing better to do ~.~

tmr go east coast!!! yay!~ out the whole day tmr i hope it doesnt rain while we are cycling. gotta take more pics tmr with vice and vick and my sis
hope nothing goes wrong tmr ~.~

today was such a retarded day.................................. at home for the whole DAY ahhhhh almost went crazy. too bad xiao mei kanna pangseh then chat with me whole day hahaha (sry if i sound evil =x )

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10:29 PM

i'm waiting for that person... and i'll keep on waiting... till i meet that person who i will be able to trust totally.

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3:52 PM

25th:
at home for nearly the whole day, doing nothing at all -.- brought my mum and sis out to play arcade. ok sounds retarded but my mother wanted to haha she wanted to play car racing ~.~ she always liked car games lol hmm but we also played the basketball thingy and i got 300+ for the first time haha ^^V

26th:
woke up late!!~ out the whole day with caroline, watched "i am legend" and got her shoe and went to bowl. went to amk hub also at night for dinner and got myself a wallet =D $39 but my dad is gonna pay and bought her a soft toy.... -.- elmo lols was going to watch movie again at night but didn't in the end

27th:
woke up at 2pm... @.@ then slack around and play game till went to sameer's house cuz going cycling =) this holiday cycle like dunno how many times... at first so many ppl wanted to go then in the end was only me, zy, sameer and terry. but it was still fun and super tiring.... stupid sameer... got home at like 10+pm lol

28th:
at home the whole day... so b-o-r-i-n-g....... played some games but i got bored then went to grandma's place for dinner and back home at 9+pm and i've been stoning here eversince o.o
foolish enough to have thought that you might like me and foolish enough to think that we could be together.

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1:48 AM

Monday, December 24, 2007

was supposed to go cycling ytd evening but it was raining and my mum kept bugging me to go for dinner. so in the end i didn't go zy's house. then went to find my aunt and they decided to go park way for dinner... this is the 2nd time happening which is so fking lame cuz i end up at the same place that i was supposed to go. my mum and sis just are too irritating sometimes.

i was sleeping in the car all the way till fetch vice and went to park way. then first thing me and my cousin did was go to arcade lolss and some guy put a token for the initial D but never play so i played hahaha free sia... then played 2 rounds of the basketball thing and went off to mac. and then 2hrs+ of pool @.@ play until i sian lah... last few rounds i was dying le... lol

went back to find the parents then i decided to stay over at vice's house so went back to get clothes and when we were going back, we were telling racist jokes cuz it started with my aunt saying she hate those indians lol

nothing much at vice house, just dota and then was about to go to sleep then sameer call me go play lan at like 3am -.- wth man then keep asking me to go when i wanted to sleep... bastard... then ended up play from 5 to 6.30am and only played battlefield and i went back to vice house at 7.30am after breakfast at mac and slept till 2.40pm =x

lol i stopped typing at the previous para cuz i asked my cousin, vickie to send me back home ^^ seems like im not the most tired one around. he had to work on 23rd from 7pm till 24th 10am and then again from 24th, report at 4.30pm and work till like... 25th.. dunno what time... he had less than 4hrs sleep. that's more hardcore than me playing games man... that's like wtf lah.. poor guy, hope he takes care of himself :(

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3:09 PM

Sunday, December 23, 2007

Doing things for others that you know they would never do for you. Is it worth it?

Was i overeacting?

I've been spending time thinking why people around me do things that they did and affected me so badly. Many times I find out that they did not see the things that I do. Actions that they think was nothing but I find it hurting. Or mayb it just piss me off.

My friend told me once that humans were selfish. or at least there are times that they are. Fine, i'll live with that. i cant stand it when friends do things without telling you. hate that feeling.

i should have slept all the way. why the hell did i wake up.

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1:36 AM

Saturday, December 22, 2007

all conflicts are caused by different mindset and sometimes it really surprises me how different people can think. A same situation given to 2 different persons can end up with totally different endings depending on the actions one take. Most people do not agree with how another wants to do, either thinking it isn't as good or just totally discrimination. i dunno why am i typing this... but its just what i see and think.

the more things i see, the more confused i am.

ok i had a whole para scolding you for what you did but i realised something else. i'll just do what u wanted me to. or close to it. i will avoid you because you and i know that it is impossible to forget a person. why not just call him out to settle it. since the other J has given up on him. I'll see you after some time then.

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1:48 AM

Friday, December 21, 2007

lol i think i went on a shopping spree today spent like... over $200 lol hmm.. new shoe, shirts, jeans, bag =D shoe $90, bag $60, 2 jeans $50+, one $10 t-shirt and a $40 shirt. and u wun see me buying anymore le (lol i only paid for the bag myself ^^) wanted a wallet but decided not to get one yet

my sis got a camera 8mega pixel, $499 i think... @.@ beat me hands down sia... li hai, li hai must learn from her nxt time =D

... im bored again... =.="
but there's outing tmr! with the usual =) watching national treasure~
im thinking of bringing my mum and sis to watch movie but... that stupid sister is telling me there's no nice movie she wants to watch now..... nvm... then she wun have any bd present i shall bring my mum to watch =)

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1:03 AM

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

i've got a few question to ask for those who are reading my blog.

Q1.What would you do if your dad says that he can get a ps3 for you even though you know he is short on cash. but he tells you not to worry about it.
a. just get it
b. if he told you he can get it, then just go ahead and don't worry
c. get something else cheaper
d. refuse to accept anything

Q2. Do you think that a student's responsibility is only study?
a. yes
b. no

Q3. What is your greatest fear?
own answer

reply me on my tagboard if you want to. =)

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2:07 AM

17th went to ziyang's house to watch soccer with sameer and karan also and liverpool lost.... lol sameer was just sad cuz he was expecting them to win. that was like the 2nd match of soccer that i watched lolss and most of the time i was using my laptop. then we went to sameer's house to put down our bag and left again. and his dog just barks non-stop -.-

we din sleep at all, i think thats expected and we went to eat wanton mee as usual but this time it wasn't a walk to to east coast but a random walk that ended us in a lan shop at around 3am lame sia... and no CS even better and the dota match was boring... cuz 2v2 not very fun need more ppl. i was so close to viceroy's house but my bag wasn't with me so i didn't go find him. then back at sameer's house talking crap and playing big 2 till morn again then we slept from 7 to 10 and karan couldn't get up. then was breakfast and pool till afternoon. and just when i wanted to go to viceroy's house it started drizzling so i waited till around 4 and then left with zy but viceroy didn't pick up my phone calls so i ended up camping at zy's house till 5+ lol sorry for putting up at your place. i should've left sameer's house earlier and reach viceroy's house before he went for his deep sleep. and it rained when i left zy house =.= and right after i bathed at viceroy's house we had to go out for dinner at sakae sushi cuz celebrate my sister's birthday although it already passed. i was almost falling asleep while eating lol pity i didn't get to stay over at viceroy's house =(

18th was just boring~.... woke up at like 1 and listened to songs the whole afternoon... went in maple a few times but nothing to do so basically wasted the whole day lor... -.-

now is the 19th and im still doing nothing zZz
i think im gonna start to emo again better stop typing le...

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1:24 AM

Saturday, December 15, 2007

well then first thing off my mind is... my mum didn't really scold me for going into Cj she just said study hard. =D hmm but it seems that alot of ppl dun like Cj but its my choice and what matters is yourself.

it seems like i haven been doing enough for my family so i guess i should be more careful on my choices nxt time. not going out today with my frens today was partly cuz i was tired and my sis wasn't at home so i din wan my mum to be alone again. i realise my mum is like a kid sometimes... lol well then tmr is either east coast if its not raining or stoning again. mayb i have to get my passport... o.o my sis bd is in 1 days time LOL i just remembered....

i was thinking quite alot last night,
its about time for me to move on and stop waiting for you, i suppose someone else can do that. i wasn't clear of those feelings and mayb it was just attraction. but u said it yourself that you wouldn't waste your time on someone u don't like and i suppose i shouldn't keep waiting then. i realise i can't even treat u as a normal friend too... so its a little tough for me although it may be nothing to you. mayb its me thinking a little too much but thats me and right now i may be doing something stupid/unreasonable/selfish but i decided to forget u totally if i am able too and hope time would help me out.

3/9/07 's bet was a mistake
1/11/07 to be able to see u again was good enough
oct'07 u probably shouldn't have replied my smses at all
you made your decision and i've made mine
its kindof obvious someone else likes u too and well all the best for you.

i think it was a mistake to put the link to my blog on my msn personal message so mayb i'll make a new blog or just stop posting =)
my posts are mainly my thoughts so... dun say its emo ok.. i think alot hahahah xD

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1:33 AM

Friday, December 14, 2007

@.@ ended up like staying overnight at viceroy's house for like 3 nights. cuz sunday was too late aunt ask me to stay then wed was planned and thurs was too late again lol so now im back at home and............... no one is in -.- wth come back to an empty house... wow

hmm pae i went to cjc, din make it to vjc oh wells my mum said to study hard if i wan to stay at cj lol

mayb going out again later at 3 see first ba...

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Wednesday, December 12, 2007

im so bored........... and its like raining everyday -.- i dun feel like sleeping i dunno why... but theres like nothing to do.. no one to talk to on msn and viceroy playing maple, which im quite tired of le.. seems like being too free isn't good..

im starting to think of stupid things again, it just keep bugging me.. i hate the feeling of being helpless and not knowing what to do..

now im thinking of what to do tmr.. cuz i think i might be meeting vice onli during late afternoon.. but nothing's coming to my mind -.-

lol i stopped here for like 10mins staring at the comp screen...

i got a feeling my mum is gonna get mad if i dun get into vjc but well lets just see what happens

o.o what a random post

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2:19 AM

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

lalala~ its 12am hahahaa wah super tired.................... -.- zzz sunday went to cut hair at 6+ then end up me and vice rush back to play maple hahaha so dumb lah then nvr buy dinner so wait for vick to get then he came back at 10+ and so my aunt decided that i was to stay over and when vick wakes up for work on monday morn then send me back lol hmm play and talk till like 3.30 oya and i rmb i died at wild cargo -.- then 3.30 supposed to sleep but me and vice ended up talking nonsense and he had a bet with his gf hahaha then 4.30 sleep 6.30am wake up and guess what, vice din sleep =.= he went to watch tv

reach home at 6.45am? around there then 7am my mum's alarm rang hahaha she wake up i go sleep but i overslept haizz woke up at 9.14am then nvr eat breakfast and chiong to bathe and go to amk mrt to take bus and then.... bowling alley nvr open =.= stupid caroline.. lol it says open at 12noon which was when we were supposed to meet joyce hahaha

and we were late in meeting joyce again hahahaha eat pepper lunch (first time for me) then i was like quite hungry at first cuz no breakfast then the food came i was like sian dun feel like eating -.- then after that cuz no one had any idea what to do then they decided to shop so it ended up something like when i was with my mum and sis, 2 girls 1 guy and im just tagging along haha when nothing to do le they say wan watch movie but no nice movies out yet also, so wasted time walking in the rain to cine only to leave like 10mins after we went in the building lols and then? wan play bowling? wa piang go all the way back to amk mrt and that caroline doesn't know her way around her place. see lah! ask father fetch too much le right!

played 3 games of bowling lol i won the 2nd round o.o haiz now i think about it... (fk why does it always get emo) last time used to play with melvin and glenn then now... i dun even go out with them and i dun have contact with glenn at all zZz... pri school frens that drifted so far... and yet it seems ok with other frens that i nvr meet for so long.. sat night band when i saw gordon it was like still the same as last time although its been 6yrs since i seen him amazing eh.. lol

wed going to vice house again =) and this time vick is with us to go ssc hahaha i think will swim( if nvr rain) play lan and probably anything else we can think of hahaha
thurs is posting result for PAE -.-
fri mayb go play bowling again
left 2 weeks
not going overseas le (probably nxt yr june haiz... )
and i suddenly dun feel like gaming that much... lol although lv70 le
and my sis's fren coming over tmr....................
SOMEONE CALL ME GO OUT PLS!!!! T.T

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12:00 AM

Friday, December 7, 2007

hahahaaha omg its 6.35am NOW hahahahaha played dota with vice from 2? wah siao seh now hungry hmm we won like 3 rounds out of 4 first round lose -.- but dam nice still hahaha

this is like the 2nd time we play so long but difference is i not at his house. and im surprised my mum din wake up cuz she always does hahaha oh wells had my fun =)

ahhh nxt yr wun get to do this crap =.=" no one to dota with me le T.T haiz nvm nxt yr de nxt yr then say. i wanna go sleep le hahaha

tata~

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6:35 AM

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

i seriously don't know what to say to you. Firstly, going to vice's house was planned long before and the first time i told u was i wanted to stay for a week, but i decided on 2 nights after that. Such a simple thing and yet u still do not allow? just 2nights at his house and he's going to Australia next year. Is it that difficult? Is it too unreasonable? I wouldn't be able to stay with him for A YEAR and 2 nights is too much?

The holiday that you planned was not a holiday for me basically because dad told me he wants me to learn something there. So from my point of view, you are just trying to lie to me and bring me in. You may really wanted to have a holiday but why there? Why a place that has totally no entertainment? Brunei just isn't a holiday destination for me.

The thing that you wrote on the board this morning just told me that you had not thought of anything from my point of view. I know you want a break from your work but why can't we go somewhere else?

But now forget about that. I have more troubles than that. If im a teenager, i wouldn't want to go in, i would want to play. If im a son, then i would have to go in since i was asked to by my dad. If im myself, then i would never had expected this to happen and so sudden that im unable to take it.

So how am i supposed to react? both my parents want me to go but i don't want to. So am i supposed to say NO? and even when i said NO the answer is still YES. i expected that. i couldn't run from it. So i had to prepare myself to face it but it's not easy. So whatever the case is i decided that i will go in brunei myself and YOU and sis can go somewhere else for a holiday. Fair enough? Well then you are not left out now are you? and don't think that i'm left out because this was my decision. So now you have a chance to go somewhere u really want to. well then i suppose this settles it and i'll make sure u read this by today.

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12:45 PM

Tuesday, December 4, 2007

hahahahaha guess where i am now...? at home... FK im supposed to be at my cousin's house... plan before Os was stay for 1 week at viceroy's house now i say 2nights and my mum said NO just on the day that i was going and sunday also dun let me stay at home to play wth

what is this sia after Os im worse off than before Os... if i regret not going to vice's house to stay nxt yr i'll just kill myself -.- basket... 2nights also cannot, sat wan go friend's house stay also cannot, play till 3, 4 am also cannot this cannot that cannot then ask me go and help dad wtf stupid... nicely this yr christmas in brunei HELL WITH YOU holiday ah? u lying through ur teeths right kaoz forget it... i cant be bothered...

lucky i went out with yew tong, jia qi and kevan for soccer and lan today if not i'll just be wasting the day off..

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3:11 AM

Sunday, December 2, 2007

o.o i got a feeling wun get to play basketball since rachael couldnt make it on thurs -.- then become friday afternoon sian and i need to chiong lv!! argh stupid tzy make me rush T.T currently im lv64 hes lv68 haizzz nvm nvm 3rd job 3rd job!

cant wait for monday to wed ^^ i shall pack all my games hahaha

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1:04 AM