wooo~ what a boring dayyyyyyyyyyy -.- should have went for the physics camp thing... at least got something to do...
i practically stoned for the whole day. didnt even launch cabal.. like dont feel like playing already but no moon study yet too. so i just read my book, play guitar, learning 'more than words' and my finger hurts ><
i want to go out and play sports damn.. but few of my friends do that.. haiz.. okay i want to swim tmr but somehow i dunno why i got this scared feeling of getting cramps while swimming. and what if no one is there.. too long never swim le.. just feel scared ><
i'm kindof confuseddddd... i dunno why..... what the hell man... i realise i'm damn scared of loneliness. probably cause of the many times i went home from school and no one is at home. and i dont really have a friend who is always there for me. no offense man but it feels like that.
okay lets see.. next week should start studying. my plan was 1 week break 3 week study and theres a break of like few days during the supposedly 3week study thing... i hope i dont die for MYE lol
hell.. life sucks..
all messed up;
12:30 AM
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
life isn't how i imagine it to be. sometimes i think everyone is too self centred, yes its human nature to be so but some people are just too inconsiderate at times.. oh wells..
changes can't be avoided. how much a person change depends on himself. but remember that he was once like this. and that means whatever he was, its still in him. i wish to believe in this.
i realise i do alot of thinking in my head. not exactly say it out. sometimes i see no point saying it out cause no one thinks the same way in everything, although there may be times when it is similar.
i don't understand why people expect things from others when they aren't prepared to do it for others themselves. i don't understand why people put down others for things they try, especially from family members.
Most of our life is illusory. Everything in the past is memory, everything in the future is imagination. Those are both illusions - memories are unreliable and we just speculate about the future. The only thing that is completely real is the one instant of the present - and that is constantly changing from imagination to a memory.
and there's a reason why im not updating.
all messed up;
10:35 PM
Sunday, May 11, 2008
ahhhh ok ok update update... sianssss
hmm JC SUCKS haha you've got to agree to that man... well i better start studying also if i dont want to die for mid years. i've been failing like every test? sads man i feel like ranting about the teachers but... net not safe la.. haha.. pw quite screwed up also =.= im gonna kill my team members...
i haven't been hanging around with sameer and zy lately.. cuz they either have hockey or i have lessons.. and no one's asking to go out on saturdays already.. i suppose everyone is busy?
my life now consists of CABAL, school (studying) and thats all... so.. boring la... fk.. cabal just to waste my time away and play around. at least i can talk to jerome about it in class not that bad haha and guang wei just joined in.
everyone is telling me not to study but they can still pass =.= i hate it when ppl tell me they never study and get top in class
i've got a boring life man... stayed at home the whole of today leh can you believe it? its a saturday and i get to stay at home ALONE from like 1pm to 8pm zzzzzzzzzzzzzz dinner also eat alone, im going mad soon i tell you..
zhihao, gordon say 30th may got hc band concert tix $10 and $12 you want to go? or anyone wants to go?
life sucks for now, seriously. shall we get together and stay over at sameer's house during june holidays? =D
