okay i was supposed to be asleep by now. but then cause tmr's hockey is cancelled. so i dont care alr. and just like that. my plans for tmr is screweddddddd. i dunno what to do.
and i just ended from a almost 3 hours of CS with adam and linh. although i was talking to my cousin who came over for like almost 1hour. lol still alot though.
talked about my studies and stuff. quite alot to think about again.
rawr. i wanna go drink. i wanna go play. i wanna have fun.
who to drink with. who to play with. who to have fun with. Something's missing from my life.
all messed up;
11:58 PM
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
okay firstly my blog is open to public again. cause my mum wants to read, so to save her the time of typing her email and password i might as well just leave it open to public. okay i just ate a packet of durians. damn full. haha
okay next, i think sometimes i'm just blogging whatever i am feeling at the moment so pls dont get offended by it in any case or over react to it.
and i just feel like ranting about everything that's going on. its just too boring. nothing big is happening. everyday is just like.. going on normally.. nothing much, nothing that surprises me.. just so plain. exams exams, first up is econs. which im not very very prepared for. then GP. hm not like i really do anything to prepare for it. but i dont want a S or U for it.
i'm kindof gonna give up totally about this already. its just not going anywhere. so i might as well move on right. whether i can or not. that's a different thing. i keep waiting but nothing ever happens.
girls. 'can't live with them, but can't live without them either.' how? zZz
and i'm still bothered about what's going on in your life. sometimes i wonder why i wasn't given the chance.
all messed up;
10:10 PM
Sunday, May 24, 2009
why do ppl bother to appear offline? im not referring to those who do it for fun but those who really just like to appear offline. okay maybe it pisses me off cause its like, i dont freaking see a reason for it. and then ppl who want to talk to you can't find you. hmm well done.
okay saturday was freaking wasted. but i did talk quite abit with mau at dinner. wonder how's his comps today.
im supposed to be studying.. but the weekends are just not allowing myself to. i just feel like slacking haha
damn i still haven found my drive in life and my purpose to this mess.
all messed up;
1:49 PM
Monday, May 18, 2009
finding something that i am good at is so difficult. what the fuck.
am i just average at everything. i want to excel in something.
all messed up;
10:55 PM
Friday, May 15, 2009
and so.. hockey is over now. sadly. i just feel that its so wasted even though i didnt get to play much. and coach's eyes were like telling me he didnt trust me to play. but you know what? i think i could at least understand my own capabilities in defending. i dont believe im weaker than any of them out there.
have you ever tried running on the track while its raining and there's lightning? hahah well i got to, since the pe teachers didnt put up the lightning alert sign. and i kindof thought about how it would be like to die from a lightning strike. Bam! and you'll be gone? i think it'll take less than a sec. imagine if you saw the lightning coming towards you. hoho...
no one to celebrate with even if i produce my best results. i don't see the happiness in life.
somehow i keep telling myself, no matter how screwed up your life is, don't complain. there's always someone else having a worse life out there. each of us have our own problems to handle.
and someone told me that even if you are feeling sad, you aren't supposed to show it.
its certainly not the best time of my life now. but i believe it can get better. let me enjoy school just like how i did in sec4 (:
