Tuesday, October 13, 2009
heyhey~ just 3 more days and JC life ends. that's damn fastttt and 'A' levels is like in 29 days or something.. damn. well i guess its time to say goodbye to people from t13. haha
i somehow feel less attached to cj than i was to sji. was it because too little time was spent here? too much has happened? i don't really know..
all i know is.. well nothing. feels like i wasted the 2 years. i realise i swear alot in cj, something that has never happened before. maybe cause its easier to put on a strong front than let them see the weak side.
and yet the last 2 weeks of school has been almost hell for me.. not just school life but my family also. so much for a family holiday. the idea which crumbled in 2days. things that you still have not understand, things that i try to explain to you, things that you choose not to listen. and then everything falls apart. i can't hold the family alone. i'm not enough. and i realise something. i'm always the first to object and reject any plan, be it school stuff or family. and in the end i'm the one to try pull everything back. why is it me? i'm damn tired of it. but everytime.. i can't seem to let it go that way.
rml. well i guess it wouldn't make a difference. its just 2 more days. i guess i'll leave it as that? so close yet so far. even if more time was given i'll prob never reach. you're just in a different place from me.
goodbye.
all messed up;
8:21 PM
